I am slowly working my way back to posting on the blogg. I will also catch up with messages SOON.
This was written the first of last month.
Not really sure how to start or what to say.
Not good because I can usually find the words.
First off : the easy stuff. Every one knows by now that I have internet issues. It’s always slow.
Some days it is slower than others. Days where it would be better not to have a light on saying we have a signal.
We even have days we don’t have it at all .
The side effects of living in the country.
Our power was also out this past week. It is way too hot here in Florida for THAT.
AS IF THAT WASN’T ENOUGH: my smart phone died. It won’t turn on.
No money to buy another one so I am using Very cheap and hard to use one.
My the ‘s turn out to be tge ‘s .
I can’t seem to hit the p.
An example :
Tge ketter is gard to write. I cant seem to do antthibg wrute.
Those are the easy things to write about.
Life in Our Neck Of The Woods is a bit harder.
I need all of you prayer warriors to do what you do best.
For Danny and I.
For my struggle to keep our marriage going.
I can’t go into it.
Well, I won’t.
I am just hanging on by a thread. Hurting.
As far as what I am working on:
Tomorrow starts Time Warp Wife’s Romans Bible Study. Darlene is amazing.
Several Good Morning groups are doing it as well.
I am behind posting all of the information.
I owe you all an apology. I never meant to take June off. I had planned to post whenever the internet allowed.
For those who may not know: our internet has been an issue for a few years now. Getting slower and not having service for hours or days at a time. Still paying the same for bad service.
The situation got really bad in May. By the end of May , even my scheduled posts weren’t going out on time.
Danny and I were having serious issues. Still are , although I am not sure he even realizes how bad things are.
I was an emotional wreck. Just waiting to crash.
Well crash I did. I hit a crying spell where I just couldn’t stop crying.
Or yelling loudly outdoors.
I started spending hours praying. Hours in my war room area when Danny was home.
Then I had a serious asthma attack and ended up in the hospital for a week. Only a few people were even told. Following that I realized I was having a lupus flair.
It wasn’t all my depression causing problems.
Frustrating because I have been eating well and trying keto ,Thin Healthy Momma and Atkins. Using parts from each of them. I have read hundreds of posts….books and articles. Have journals full of information.
I was send a huge box of Plexus products plus other health products. I have been on the Plexus Triplex for over 45 days.
Tried numerous green drinks.
I got a 30 day supply of the old Plexus Slim. ( I still need to get to the store to get a money order to pay for it). So will be drinking it for another 14 days.
Two months of eating healthy. Taking good supplements and not the cheap Walmart ones only.
I know my body is better off but honestly: I haven’t felt any healthier.
My body did what it does best.
It attacks itself.
I know it will take months for my body to start feeling better. For my weight to start going down.
Everyone says don’t give up.
I won’t. I will continue to eat the right foods. No cheating. The only thing I allow myself that is not healthy is my Diet Pepsi.
I will drink it when I really want it.
The good news: I haven’t bought any Diet Pepsi in 2 months.
I don’t crave it all that often. I still want it but I don’t have to have it.
Sometimes I will have one and then decide I don’t need it all.
A few times….the really stressfully… angry times…I may have 2 or 3 a day. I don’t think I have had more than 3 a day. Not in 2 months.
This is HUGE for me.
Diet Pepsi was my stress drink.
And goodness knows I have been stressed. And angry.
Do I plan to give it up entirely? No.
I really have no desire to.
Everyone should have something they really love every now and then.
What is the one change that has been made ?
I crave water and tea.
I drink regular tea only when we are having lunch out. The tannin in regular tea is not good for my kidneys.
Two months ago I had to force water down. I could handle lemon or lime water etc. But only a glass or 2.
I seldom had a glass of water.
Not water only.
I add my 🍋 and limes. I add a packet of Crystal Light to the gallon jug. I drink green tea. Herbal teas. Hot teas.
I will drink from shortly after I wake up till I go to bed.
My lupus rash has been gone most of the last 2 months.
My skin looks better.
That had made me feel better.