I Don’t Cry. SO Why Am I Crying? August 28, 2015

I don’t usually cry. I try really hard not to cry. Not when I am sick and in pain.
I just had more pain meds so although I hurt, I am doing good there.
I am lonely. I seldom allow myself to cry then.
I just called Danny and of course woke him up. The phone rang but cut off right away. He messaged me and asked if I was ok. I said yes, that I just needed to hear his voice.
A few minutes later, Danny called. He was at the end of our driveway . We talked for about 45 minutes. He said he be here around 9 if that was ok. That would give him time to take care of Mr. Bojangles and Vittles.
Clean out the rabbit cage. (Bless his heart)
I said 9 was fine.
I seldom get lonely during the night time.
Nights are when I feel good. Happier.
I am lonely tonight.
I miss my parents.
I miss Bobby.
Feeling like a child right now. A needy child.
I don’t like feeling needy.

Danny loves me and God knows I love him.
So why am I crying?

42 Comments Add yours

  1. Anand says:

    If you feel lonely in the night, send me an email. I am in India, and it’s day for me when it’s night for you. While I am not always on email, but I check it off and on. Sending our good wishes.

    1. Anand, Thank you. I really appreciate that. I really do.
      Today has been an upbeat day.
      Sorry I haven’t read your blogs mich this week.
      πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ xxxxxxxx

      1. Anand says:

        Sarah…reading my blog or not, doesn’t matter. Not while you aren’t well, nor otherwise. My email id is the same as my blog url, except that instead of wordpress.com, you must add “@gmail.com”. Feel free to write when you need some company. I’ll respond immediately upon seeing your email.

        1. Respond ONLY if you aren’t BUSY………. I will take you up on it ….I am sure…Maybe not right away…but at some point when the Chemo is doing its worse.
          Thank you……I mean it. I am so glad we have connected. You mean a lot to me……I mean that…..

          1. Anand says:

            You are welcome. Any time. I hope you feel better soon.

            1. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

  2. MeRaw says:

    Sending lots of love and virtual hugs x

    1. Got them . Sending them back at you. xxxx

  3. Peggy Guiler says:

    Electronic hugs don’t feel very good but know you are being cared about.

    1. Peggy, Since I can’t get the other kind I will take all of the electronic ones I can get……Sending some back towards you…..XXXXXXX

  4. Sometimes a good cry just makes you feel better !! embrace it and move forward, sometimes the pain just needs to come out !!

    1. It did feel better and writing about it helped as well. πŸ™‚

      1. Good, I am so happy to hear that !! I hope you have a lovely weekend !!!

  5. The tears will release all that pent up emotion you have inside by not allowing yourself to cry. That kind of release is good once in a while! Until then I’m here and my hugs too to cheer you up!

    1. You do cheer me up. More than you know. I haven’t had a chance to read your blog much. Danny has been with me all week bless his heart.
      I could use to free time LOL
      Not complaining though. Have a good weekend. Sarah

      1. Glad to know that Sarah! Just want you to get better and come bck home!
        Enjoy the weekend with Danny! πŸ™‚

  6. Annie says:

    Sending good vibes to you Sarah xx

    1. Annie Thank you. I got them. Feeling more positive….Any plans for the weekend?

      1. Annie says:

        A bit of house chores, then some relaxing time. Maybe a trip to a bookstore. Next week will be a busy week at work, so I’m saving some energy for that. How about you?

        1. A trip to the bookstore would be ideal.
          I am still stuck in the hospital and pretty much tied to the bed. At least we have internet and TV ……Danny and I are actually enjoying our time together. It’s strange being closer here that at home. Danny works next weekend also.

  7. mini2z says:

    Hugs my sweet friend.
    Let the tears flow it’s a good release!!
    Love ya

    1. They helped tremendously. So did calling Danny and talking to him in the middle of the night. Any plans for the weekend? <3

      1. mini2z says:

        Oh my I just had a 3 hour nap & said no to an A&W burger

        1. A & W ? I didn’t know they were still around.

          1. mini2z says:

            My first job was one but I think we have five in and around the city

            1. Smiling at the thought of you working at A&W . We had one in our small town. 2 of my best friends worked there. It was just a fun place to go. Cheap. Good food.
              I loved the cold mugs.

              1. mini2z says:

                I hate onions to this day because of there!!

                1. Love Love them onions…..

    2. you don’t have all those other responsibilities tugging at you in a situation like this; it’s a time to draw closer together; glad it is for you

  8. Scott says:

    Emotions don’t need a logical reason to get in the way. Cheer up and send us some chit chat.

    1. You gave me an idea for a post.
      HUGS ?A huge Thank you.

    2. Thanks to you I wrote a post on Chit Chatting. Hope you approve. HUGS

  9. kriis22 says:

    I get like that at night… I hate it .. But mine is depression… I hope it goes away soon … ((((((Big hugs)))))

    1. Depression Is a terrible thing to have Hugs
      Kriss< Any plans for the weekend.

      1. kriis22 says:

        Yes, depression is horrible…weekend plans are to Prepare for my first class… Just started college… Eeek!!! Hope you are feeling better! I’m getting to know you so much through your blog β˜ΊοΈπŸ‘πŸ½

        1. College Days I remember mine….When does your first class start.? This week?
          Relax if you can. Yeah right. Who can really relax their first day of anything NEW. It is exciting though. New opportunities.
          I am ok. Doing good. HUGS

          1. kriis22 says:

            First day is Tuesday however I was able to get 2 assignments done already. Actually 3! So now I’m studying up on grammar cause I can’t remember most of it! I am trying not to feel stressed but one class every 5 weeks is pretty crazy! Lol :))

            1. I’d offer to help you if I could A few years ago I would have been able to help you with college…….Now I need the help.

        2. I forgot to comment on the depression. I am here if you ever need to talk with someone. I am a good listener.

          1. kriis22 says:

            Thank you!!!! I will definitely take you up on that… And the same goes for you πŸ™‚

            1. GOOD….:) πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ <3 <3

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