Everything in me SCREAMS to Write a letter to ME BEFORE BOBBY DIED THAT FATEFUL DAY.
What could I possible say to myself?
May 19, 2015
This Is From You In the year 2015. October 19.
You just laughed. Didn’t you?
What if I asked you who your first love was? The one you loved as a girl for years. More than a crush. The one you never talk about.
No one else would know or remember.
Do you believe it’s yourself in the year 2015?
Probably not but you have some serious doubts.
The reason I am writing you is to tell you NOT TO LEAVE BOBBY ALONE AT HIS APARTMENT ON MAY 19, 2015.
He will have an asthma attack somewhere around 5PM.
He will die unless he gets oxygen. HIS INHALER WILL NOT WORK. He will waste time trying to call you at home.
So I can’t write THAT LETTER.
Oh How I wish I could.
So my letter will be sent a few months later. I am about to move to Florida. Bobby is in Heaven. I am starting ANEW. With Danny. We said our vows on Bobby’s Mountain.
This is from you from October 2015.
You were asked more than once who you loved more….Bobby or Danny.
You always said,”I love them both but I need Bobby.”
When you are in Colorado and are planning on coming to Florida to live full time, WHATEVER YOU DO , DO NOT LEAVE EVERYTHING AT A FRIEND’S HOUSE.
DO WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO TO MOVE ALL OF YOURS AND BOBBY’S BELONGINGS TO FLORIDA.
DO NOT LEAVE COLORADO WITHOUT THEM.
ONE WORD FIRE.
THAT ALONE SHOULD MAKE SURE YOU DO WHAT I AM TELLING YOU HERE. YOU WOULD HAVE TO LISTEN EVEN IF YOU DON’T BELIEVE THIS LETTER IS FROM AN OLDER YOU.
I have a few words of wisdom to tell you from learning things the hard way. LISTEN WELL.
I will also explain why I am saying this.
First and foremost:
You will hate SPRING, SUMMER AND A GOOD PART OF FALL In FLORIDA 10x’s MORE THAN YOU EVER IMAGINE IT NOW.
It will suck the life out of you if you let it.
Take action early so as not to have problems later.
DO NOT MAKE DUE WITH BEING HOT AT HOME.
If you are hot inside then turn the AC DOWN.
Danny will turn the heat on all winter so don’t feel guilty when you have to TURN THE AC DOWN.
To most people this sounds so simple YET It isn’t.
YOU WILL FEEL GUILTY. DON’T.
DO NOT LEAVE YOU BEHIND.
Things will get pretty bad because you forgot to believe in yourself. You forgot for awhile to love yourself FIRST.
You will think about leaving Danny many times.
You won’t trust in YOURSELF.
Your comment to that will be: “I won’t lose myself or anything else. I have already lost the worse thing I could ever lose. Bobby. If I am strong enough to face that, I am strong enough to beat the heat in Florida. I am strong enough to beat anything.”
Yes, you are but you will forget it for awhile. You will let Danny and others keep you from doing what you need to do. You will become DEPRESSED.
You thought it was bad in 1999.
That is nothing like what you will battle in 2014 and 2015.
You will become a hermit in your own home.
A shell of yourself.
Love IS NOT ENOUGH.
Danny will NOT WANT TO LEAVE FLORIDA.
Some promises do get broken.
Lastly: Deal with Lori. NOW. I MEAN NOW. Or WALK AWAY.
Wow, That was hard because I know it can’t be done. My mind had trouble with it.
I am also having trouble with WORDPRESS.
I thought it was just me but I have heard others having trouble with getting wordpress to work right.
Losing information before you PUBLISH OR SCHEDULE.
I have lost 3 different posts that were saved but can’t be found.
My settings are messed up.
Now IF TIME TRAVEL WERE REAL……..The older me would go back in time.