The Rut of Motherhood From Worshipful Living- Plus (The Rut Of Now What From Sarah)

From Sarah:
I never had the Mom RUT but I sure have The Rut Of Now What? No kids around. Bobby is in Heaven.  My Family is Miles AWAY.
I am not teaching any more and not able to volunteer as much at the park where we live and hubby works. Everything is HARD.
I miss Motherhood. I thrived on it.
I miss being ACTIVE. I am doing better…A lot better health- wise. My ankle is better at times. I even made it up to the Entrance Gate Yesterday. A mile up and A LONG HARD MILE BACK.
It use to be so easy.
I work hard at staying UPBEAT.
It is getting harder. All summer I kept thinking the depression would lesson when It cooled off. Well, except for a few days…Summer is still here. It is still wet and damp.
But, even when the days are nice ..I am Not snapping out of it.
I have good moments. Yesterday, I had a few HOURS of Happiness when Danny and I were outside and having an unexpected ride through Rolling Meadows Ranch.
Then we headed home and I wanted to cry.
I know this will pass.
I was doing good when the blog was new. I thrive on it. Then the internet got worse and is off more than not. Verizon is being SOLD and they don’t care about any of us here.
I was starting to make money and seeing our way out of this hole we are in.
I was so CLOSE.
Praying here as I always do. I know things will get better.
Love Sarah

“Mama, are we going to do school today?” Those words, simple, tore into my heart and made me go to the bathroom and sob. I was failing. To be honest, we had not had school all week – and it was Wednesday. We had “reviewed” by listening to educational songs. We watched a few educational …

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