What do you look forward to? — Nancy Loderick’s Blog

These days, it really is the little things that mean the most. I try to find something to look forward to every day. These days it is: 1. My morning coffee. I just have one mug, with real cream. It is such a treat and looking forward to this makes it easier to get up […]

What do you look forward to? — Nancy Loderick’s Blog

From Sarah: I hate to admit it but the things I look forward to now are the things I would never have dreamed I would. I hate feeling this way.
I use to hate it when Danny had to work. I looked forward to his getting off and coming home. I loved our nightly rides, our bonfires, movie night etc.
Now I look forward to his going to work. I dread his coming home.
I dread his days off.
I went to bed when he did ( many times I would get back up later) just so we could Snuggle/ Cuddle etc.
Now I dread going to BED. Danny is seldom there when I go to bed and many times he doesn’t even come to bed until long after I want his company. We haven’t cuddled in months. Not really. We seldom touch. His choice.
We haven’t made love in YEARS. We haven’t had sex in months.
Quality Time Or Family Tie seldom happens. When he finally comes out of his computer room, it’s usually late at night or in the WEE HOURS of the morning.
Then he decides to RAMBLE/ Loudly about everything he hates.
Work !!!!!! It’s always someone elses fault.

I look forward to seeing the deer and the turkey.
Talks with my sister.
Time ALONE when he is working.

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