Thursday’s Reflections/ I Am Thankful For The Peace I Am Once Again Feeling Inside Of Me
I have been in such a dark place for so long. Being sick for most of this year has really taken a lot out of me.
I was spoiled after years of being in remission. Of having very few serious LUPUS and other Autoimmune problems. Off all lupus medications
Add in Covid 19 earlier this year. It hit hard and won’t go away. I don’t have it anymore but the problems it brought have been lasting. For months I wasn’t able to smell much of anything. I could only taste a few things.
The ONLY thing I liked about it was: I couldn’t smell coffee or Our WATER.
I can smell both every once in awhile.
It brought back lupus flares and blurred vision a good part of the time.
Many other symptoms refuse to go away.
Danny has been going through some issues of his own. His drinking has increased a lot. He isn’t happy at work. Or at home. He is NEGATIVE about so many things.
Sex and emotional closeness from him seem only to be found in memories.
So I have been in a very dark place of my own.
Trying to keep both of us safe and healthy at home and at work.
I have noticed in the last week or so, a light at the end of the tunnel. A small ray of sunshine.
I am thankful for this hope.
The peace that is beginning to settle over me at times.
Even watching the news and seeing how divided our country is, I am still hopeful here at home.
My eyes are blurry and achy so I will quit for now.
I have so many projects that are behind. Blog posts that really were never finished.
Our internet and satellite are often OUT or not allowing much of anything.
Love and hugs,