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I’m Ready to Fight – Beautiful Ashes And A Message From Sarah

http://www.mistyleask.com/im-ready-to-fight/ 

I Am Ready To Fight : By  Misty Leask  

From Sarah : I need to start posting about the ongoing Battles I have. I have a number of them. Depression is the major one because that contributes to all the rest of them. It is harder to fight for anything when you are fighting depression. 

So I will be sharing my battles as well. 

Depression

Lupus And Fibromyalgia.

My Weight 

Always Being Hot 

My Horrible Mood Swings Not Caused By Depression

Loneliness 

Isolation

My Marriage

From Misty:

Living far away from my family has never been easy for me, but God blessed me with the best friends I could ever ask for. Thanks to them, He got my attention. I was told quite a few times that I needed to watch, War Room, by a couple of my besties. I didn’t take the time to do so until this week. It was life changing. God opened my eyes to see that I needed my own war room because I had stopped talking to Him due to the many distractions around me. I have friends and family that need me fighting for them, my children need me fighting for them. I’m losing the parenting battle many days because I’m not fighting with the right weapons! I’ve been leaving behind the biggest advocate I have and trying to find my way on this parenting journey alone. It’s no wonder that I’ve struggled with depression so much the last few months. 

Living far away from my family has never been easy for me, but God blessed me with the best friends I could ever ask for. Thanks to them, He got my attention. I was told quite a few times that I needed to watch, War Room, by a couple of my besties. I didn’t take the time to do so until this week. It was life changing. God opened my eyes to see that I needed my own war room because I had stopped talking to Him due to the many distractions around me. I have friends and family that need me fighting for them, my children need me fighting for them. I’m losing the parenting battle many days because I’m not fighting with the right weapons! I’ve been leaving behind the biggest advocate I have and trying to find my way on this parenting journey alone. It’s no wonder that I’ve struggled with depression so much the last few months. 

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An Update On My Health And My Day In General -Wednesday, August 5, 2015

The front yard. More weeds than grass.
The front yard. More weeds than grass. Needs mowing. Guess who’s job that is? 

First off:
Good afternoon from A SUNNY Beautiful Looking if you Don’t Go Outside Day Here in Our Neck Of The Woods….But then it is Florida and it is hot and humid here then. This is our second full day of No Rain.

It's raining again. Thundering as well. 2.6 inches of rain here on Saturday.
It’s raining again. Thundering as well. 2.6 inches of rain here on Saturday. 
Made Sun Tea and then had to cool it down. Got ice from the large freezer to add to the containers. Ice machine is still not working.
Made Sun Tea and then had to cool it down. Got ice from the large freezer to add to the containers. Ice machine is still not working.

It took til noon for the water to completely go down in our yard. The grass finally dried out…..the lawn mower got fixed…..that turned into a story of it’s own. To post in Our Neck Of The Woods Blog.

Remember how proud I was to finally get out and get EVERYTHING that needed mowing here at RMR? It all is looking pretty bad again. Especially  by the French Doors.
Remember how proud I was to finally get out and get EVERYTHING that needed mowing here at RMR? It all is looking pretty bad again. Especially by the French Doors.
The flat tire was fixed then not an hour later. Danny serviced it at the shop and went to check it out in day use area. He promptly ran over some fishing wire  causing multiple holes to be fixed. Turned into a MAJOR JOB. Took two people to fix.
The flat tire was fixed then not an hour later. Danny serviced it at the shop and went to check it out in day use area. He promptly ran over some fishing wire causing multiple holes to be fixed. Turned into a MAJOR JOB. Took two people to fix.

Still a long ways from having the smaller blogs set up with everything in place.
I know there is no hurry. It’s just that I want to separate Our Neck Of The Woods from this one. I will keep the page and the posts already there. I will do the same for the other new blogs.
I also know much of these updates contain some of the same information. It’s just I am getting more and more followers and I don’t want to confuse them to much.

I briefly saw all the comments and Get Well Wishes here. I have a number of them in my emails also. I will answer as many as I can as soon as I can. I will get to each and every one of them…..I value the comments. I feel loved and that means the world to me
Thank you to all of the new followers. I am having trouble visiting all of you. Certainly not as often as I would like to.There is just not enough time in a day.
Certainly not enough time in my day.
My day :
I was up late again after sleeping all evening last night. Yesterday was doctor visits and a brief visit to Walmart. I came home and put what food I had to away. Left everything else , including my clothes and shoes lying where I dropped them.  I took a shower to cool over and climbed into bed. I slept soundly until Danny woke me up around 11 PM. (I think).  Then I chatted with him on and off for awhile. Visited here briefly early this AM Still nighttime).

A quick job of making the bed
A quick job of making the bed

I got Danny off this morning by sheer will power. He wasn’t out the driveway and I was headed to bed. I should turn the radio off on days like this when I am not doing as well…I just can’t. We have too much going on over here at Rolling Meadows Ranch (RMR) right now. I like know what is going on. So I listen to our channel here…..nothing on until 9 or after and only a little…..I always have it turn on to Lake Kissimmee State Park. (LKSP) Good thing I had it on today. Danny ended up having to work in the Ranger Station. I actually slept after I learned that…..resting more than I usually do…..I don’t have to worry about him overdoing it.
I didn’t get up till almost noon.
Mr. Bojangles and Vittles needed some TLC.

Vittles was waiting for his carrots and lettuce.
Vittles was waiting for his carrots and lettuce.
Mr. Bojangles So glad to get his canned duck.
Mr. Bojangles So glad to get his canned duck.
At least the dishes got done last night. Putting them away? Not as important in MY SCHEME OF THINGS.
I didn’t get the dishes put away again. I have more to wash. I just can’t keep up. Danny’s lunch box is on the right there. 

Did a few routine things around the house. It take me forever to get from room to room. I have a removable support brace for my left foot and that is helping.
I had to use a wheelchair at Walmart  (yesterday )and I really get embarrassed when I use it. I don’t like the stairs I get from other people. I don’t LIKE running into anyone we know….Remember, there are no visible signs that I have lupus or fibro except for the red butterfly rash on my face.

Danny came home and almost immediately laid down on the couch.

So, as you can tell, I am doing pretty well.
I just feel like I am carrying a ton of bricks with every move I make. My brain won’t stop spinning when I am awake and much of the time when I try and lay down.
I don’t feel as if I am getting anything done from day to day, yet, I am. I am making new friends and I really need you all.

I won’t be writing  Sarah’s Attic Of Treasures Evening Posts on a daily base any more. Last week and this week have made that impossible.
I will do them when I am up to it.
Off to add photos if I can find them. I have thousands of photos but finding them right now is not always easy.
Have a good night/day where ever you are.
Love Sarah