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I’m Ready to Fight – Beautiful Ashes And A Message From Sarah

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I Am Ready To Fight : By  Misty Leask  

From Sarah : I need to start posting about the ongoing Battles I have. I have a number of them. Depression is the major one because that contributes to all the rest of them. It is harder to fight for anything when you are fighting depression. 

So I will be sharing my battles as well. 

Depression

Lupus And Fibromyalgia.

My Weight 

Always Being Hot 

My Horrible Mood Swings Not Caused By Depression

Loneliness 

Isolation

My Marriage

From Misty:

Living far away from my family has never been easy for me, but God blessed me with the best friends I could ever ask for. Thanks to them, He got my attention. I was told quite a few times that I needed to watch, War Room, by a couple of my besties. I didn’t take the time to do so until this week. It was life changing. God opened my eyes to see that I needed my own war room because I had stopped talking to Him due to the many distractions around me. I have friends and family that need me fighting for them, my children need me fighting for them. I’m losing the parenting battle many days because I’m not fighting with the right weapons! I’ve been leaving behind the biggest advocate I have and trying to find my way on this parenting journey alone. It’s no wonder that I’ve struggled with depression so much the last few months. 

Living far away from my family has never been easy for me, but God blessed me with the best friends I could ever ask for. Thanks to them, He got my attention. I was told quite a few times that I needed to watch, War Room, by a couple of my besties. I didn’t take the time to do so until this week. It was life changing. God opened my eyes to see that I needed my own war room because I had stopped talking to Him due to the many distractions around me. I have friends and family that need me fighting for them, my children need me fighting for them. I’m losing the parenting battle many days because I’m not fighting with the right weapons! I’ve been leaving behind the biggest advocate I have and trying to find my way on this parenting journey alone. It’s no wonder that I’ve struggled with depression so much the last few months. 

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From An Aspiring Writer : “Obstacle Course” In Response to A Daily Post’s Writing Prompt.

“Obstacle Course”.


He writes a short but good article on Don’t Let Your Perfection Become Procrastination.
Check it out…… Please don’t forget to look at it after reading what I have to say.

MY Daily Post’s Writing Prompt : Obstacle Course
My life is an obstacle course.
Just getting out of bed is an obstacle course by itself.

What holds me back?

What do I procrastinate about and WHY?

Dishes and other housework…..Lupus and Fibro Most of the time…
Because I really DON’T WANT TO DO THEM AS                                                                            WELL.

Mowing the grass                          Lupus and Fibro
SUMMER AND THE HEAT AND HUMIDITY
Lawn mower is broke
TOO WET To MOW
I’ll do it tomorrow

Walking                                            Lupus and Fibro
My Ankle won’t support my walking.
SUMMER AND THE HEAT AND HUMIDITY
Wishing Danny would walk with me.

THERE IS A LADY AT THE PARK THAT WOULD MEET                                                             ME IN THE MORNINGS AND WALK WITH ME…..
I PUT OFF EVEN CALLING HER

Why did I do that?                         PROCRASTINATION.
DEPRESSION
FEAR ??????
Why Fear?:                                         Fear that I would slow her down and make her NOT                                                                      want TO WALK  WITH ME

I have let Depression and Lupus and Fibro Rob me of my life.

Danny is another reason why I have become the way I am.
I need to take control of my life once more.
Sarah

Posted in About Me, Depression, Lupus and Fibro

Tired Of Hearing: “But You Don’t Look Sick”.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR:
Really tired of hearing people tell me I don’t look sick when I can hardly walk or after I have been puking my guts out all day.
Looking in the mirror today:
Yes, I actually look pretty good for
SOMEONE WHO HAS BEEN SICK ALL DAY.
I can look sick when I feel better than I usually do.
They see me often enough to have figured it out by now.
Some people OUGHT to know better than to say “THOSE” WORDS TO ME.
Sorry, Just venting.

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Reposting From Surviving The Specter: 13 Things To Remember When You Love Someone Who Has Depression

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13 Things To Remember When You Love A Person Who Has Depression

Posted in About Me, Depression, Long Drives, New For Me Blogs, Sarah's Attic Of Treasures, The Pit I Fell Into

Reposting From Buried Thoughts: The pit I fell into, and have since escaped from

I feel like this so much of the time. I don’t go anywhere. I sometimes wish I would take a drive. I use to take long drives , especially at night when I am restless.
Here in Florida, With Danny, I never do. When I was by myself and had no one to worry it was easy. Even when Bobby was home, I would simply say, I am going for a drive. A long one. A note also did the trick.
It relaxed me,
Now I would worry about breaking down. I worry about everything.

Buried Thoughts

April 19, 2013

Last night I had a complete collapse of any vestiges of sanity previously remaining. I left the apartment and saw a movie by myself… because then no one would be there to disappoint me. I could just enjoy the presence of nothingness- the lack of presence at all. I could depend on the movie. And it is the only thing that is dependable. That is so saddening. But that is my life.

Where else do I find relief…? When I’m suffering from precisely the malignancy of desire? I came home late after worrying everyone. Cried in the parking-lot for quite a while, stared vacuously out into the emptiness of the night. I cried, knowing that I would walk upstairs only to re-enter the cycle that inevitable ends in pain. And in this moment I am infuriated just as much as I am hopeless. I know that I…

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