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I had the most wonderful dream last night. Then I woke up and realized ONCE AGAIN THAT IT WAS ONLY A DREAM. Reality set in all too soon. Bobby was gone.
I live for those dreams , Yet , at the same time I dead them. For a BRIEF MOMENT when I wake up, Bobby is ALIVE again. All Is well again. FOR THAT MOMENT. Then it all changes as I once again face the fact that he died years ago. The SADNESS is there is full force. The GRIEF of the past is as strong as ever. Those feelings linger throughout the day. Never really going away. A reminder that the past was really better. Life has gone on and it’s been a good one for the most part. Whoever said “It Only Hurts For A Little While”wasn’t talking about the death of a child.
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Taking those steps into reality is hard!! With each step, you are reminded that though you are still here working the loved one is gone. Each day you have one less person to confide in. Each season you are faced with the reality that you are making choices and calls that you never thought you would have to make without your loved one’s help and guidance.
On Mother’s Day 2004 I made the mistake of going to church.
By that time my husband Peter and I had been floundering in the stormy sea of infertility for over two years, and I was tired. Depression was weighing me down — anger, too — as we rode wave after wave. The monthly swell of hope, then the crash of despair. The flailing of weary limbs and the gasping for air. The trying desperately not to drown.
The repeated prayer, “If You love me, why won’t You give us a child?”
In an effort to avoid babies and mothers and pregnant people, I had almost stopped attending church altogether.