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Lost A Family Member Today: Grieving

Lost a family member last week BUT I found out about it seconds after I posted my last post earlier this evening. Shortly after Danny got home. So in my eyes, I lost him today.
Very unexpectedly. He was in his early 40’s.
He was not born into my family, nor I  in his.
Yet, I have called him brother for for almost 20 years.  Bobby thought of him as family. As an uncle. I am Aunt Debbie to his kids.
He and his family knew me back in Colorado in the 90’s. So he (they) knew Bobby. Loved Bobby
I lost a huge connection that way. A connection I so badly needed.
He knew Debbie Kasch . Teacher. Then DayCare/ Preschool Teacher… I had had his 3 kids in it.
He knew me as a Mom.
I was /am a close friend of his then wife….I am friends with his second wife.
Nik visited Danny and I here 2 different times.
Once while still in the RV long before we even started on the Cracker House.
The last time was last year with his new wife.
There is a room with my name on it in his house. I never got to use it.

Not posting any other information. I will later.
Sarah

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My Life As an Angel Mom and The Son I Miss More Ever Day

This will be a hard post to write. This page is a hard one to need.
Today is May 19, 2015. An average day for many. Not so to me.
9 years ago today, my only child, Bobby died…..suddenly and without warning.
My world as I new it ENDED!
I can never get it or ME back.
I will be sharing Bobby with you. In pictures. Most were lost in a fire shortly after I left Colorado.
I will be sharing memories. I am A Mom. A mom without her child here on earth. I am a mom who struggles daily to be a better person.
I will be posting things I have written over the years.
This is dedicated to my son,
Robert Lee Kasch
Sunrise July 17, 1980
Sunset May 19, 2006
I wrote this on His Facebook page years ago.  https://www.facebook.com/groups/103034783080344/ Robert Lee Kasch (Bobby) May You Rest In Peace)

What can a mom say about her only child, who was taken from this world suddenly and without warning? Bobby was almost 26 years old. He never married and didn’t have any children. He had a strong faith in God and liked helping others. He worked at The Gazette in Colorado Springs. He loved kids and his cat. His favorite people were his Aunt Donna, his cousins, his great- grandparents and the Lymings. He loved Kari. He ‘d be the first to tell you that he loved his mom most. We were really close. He’d call in the middle of the day just to have me listen to a favorite song. He called at midnight to wish me Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday. He love the Cubs and the Broncos. He loved his privacy….
He loved his MOMMA the Most.

Another Post: https://www.facebook.com/pages/In-Loving-Memory-of-Robert-Lee-KaschBobby/184711451576070?ref=bookmarks
I re-

Bobby at 3 months  This Little Boy Of Mine.
Bobby at 3 months
This Little Boy Of Mine.
Bobby and I -1 year. 1981
Bobby and I -1 year. 1981
A Mother's Day Pic for Me
A Mother’s Day Pic for Me
Bobby and I -1986
Bobby and I -1986

wrote it:

What can a mom say about her only child, who was taken from this world suddenly and without warning? BOBBY DIED FROM AN ASTHMA ATTACK. He hadn’t had a serious attack in years. YES! ASTHMA KILLS! Bobby was almost 26 years old. He never married and didn’t have any children. He had a strong faith in God and liked helping others. He worked at The Gazette in Colorado Springs. He loved kids and his cat. He love his church and youth groups. He loved the Chicago Cubs and the Denver Broncos. He loved the Nitty Gritty Dirt Band and Shania Twain. His favorite people were his Aunt Donna, his cousins, his great- grandparents and the Lymings. He loved Kari. He ‘d be the first to tell you that he loved his mom most. We were really close. He’d call in the middle of the day just to have me listen to a favorite song. He called at midnight to wish me Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday. He just call for no reason. The first thing he said when he talked to me was, “Mom, I love you!” That was also the last thing he said. …..

A LETTER FROM HEAVEN:

Letter From Heaven…

To my dearest family, some things I’d like to say,
But first of all to let you know that I arrived okay.
I’m writing this from Heaven, where I dwell with God above,
Where there are no tears or sadness, there is just eternal Love.

Please do not be unhappy, just because I’m out of sight,
Remember that I’m with you, every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me, and said, ” I welcome you”.

“It’s good to have you back again.
You were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, they’ll be here later on.
I need you here so badly as part of my big plan.
There’s so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man”.

Then God gave me a list of things he wished for me to do.
And foremost on that list of mine, is to watch and care for you.
I will be beside you, every day of the week and year,
And when you’re sad I’m standing there, to wipe away the tear.

And when you lie in bed at night, the day’s chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on Earth, and all those loving years,
Because you’re only human, there’s bound to be some tears.

One thing is for certain, though my life on Earth is over,
I am closer to you now than I ever was before.
And to my many friends, trust God knows what is best.
I am not far away from you, I’m just beyond the crest.

There are rocky roads ahead for you and many hills to climb,
Together we can do it, taking one day at a time.
It was my philosophy and please I’d like for you,
To give unto the world, so the world will give to you.

If you can help someone who’s in sorrow or in pain,
Then you can say to God at night, my day was not in vain.
And now I am contented that my life it was worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way, I made somebody smile.

When you’re walking down the street and I am on your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps, only half a step behind.
And when you feel a gentle breeze of wind upon your face,
That’s me giving you a great big hug, or just a s oft embrace.

When it’s time for you to go from that body to be free,
Remember you are not going, you are coming home to me.
I will always love you, from that place way up above,
I will be in touch again soon.
P.S. God sends his love.

I was going to share the write up I did on Bobby and The Week Of His Death And Beyond but I can’t seem to find it anywhere.
which means My mind is foggy right now. That article should be saved everywhere. Closing this for now. It is just not working for me.
More later.
Bobby, I love you. Always have. Always will.

Love Mom

Bobby, Danny and I.... Better Days In Colorado...One month before Bobby died.
Bobby, Danny and I…. Better Days In Colorado…One month before Bobby died.
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Happy Mother’s Day to all of us….the good and the bad :Re-posting From Lily Pup’s Life

Happy Mother’s Day to all of us….the good and the bad.

If your mother has passed, I am sorry. It must be a tough day.

If you are estranged from your mother, I’m sorry. It must be a tough day.

If your mother was abusive, I’m really sorry. It’s a tough day.

If you had the kind of mother that loved you and was there for you, I am happy for you.

If you are a mother and your kids will recognize the day in some way, good for you.

If you have lost a child, you have my sympathy and prayers.

If you have children that could seem to care less, I’m sorry.

I just couldn’t let Mother’s Day go by. Without raining on the parade, I think it is important to remember that it is a not a good day for everyone. Do you know someone who could use a hug or a prayer today?

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From Sarah:
My Comment Oh Her post.

Lily, I should have read this YESTERDAY. Or whenever it first came to my attention. But I wasn’t feeling positive about the day. I was in a dark place. The almost uncontrollable teary/moody/bitchy/emotional/Menopausal/Hormone and Grieving rollercoaster I get from time to time. Where I want to yell or scream at Danny (because he’s here and doesn’t say the words I need to hear…Happy Mother’s Day.} Danny is just Danny. If I were to ask him …he would have said them…This Year I decided not to BEG…SO I never heard the words.
Our phone lines were down…Thanks Verizon…..
So I couldn’t call My Dad. (Mom died less than a year ago). I couldn’t call my sister, my niece…No one.
I didn’t want a stranger to say the words although I almost wish someone had.
I can’t call Bobby. He’s in Heaven.
I had an awesome /magical childhood.
Mother’s Day along with Father’s Day were CELEBRATIONS. All Holidays were.
I kept the traditions up when I left home.
Bobby was awesome.
My mom always sent me a Mother’s Day card. Even after Bobby died. She understood. This year…..No Mother’s Card.
It was the knowing for weeks that I wouldn’t get THAT CARD that hurt. I wouldn’t be able to call her. I wouldn’t be able to hear her voice.
Yet, today : I remember HER. I see her smile.
I remember Bobby.
I rambled here…Again. Sorry.
Lily,

Thank you for this post. I am sorry you had a rotten childhood….I am so very glad your children have you as their mom. Happy Mother’s Day.
Happy Mother’s Day to all of you.
Love Sarah

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Our Neck Of The Woods

Rolling Meadows Ranch Our Sunset Spot- Our Yard
Rolling Meadows Ranch Our Sunset Spot- Our Yard
Sand Hill Cranes
Sand Hill Cranes

This is from my Our Neck Of The Woods Facebook Pagehttp://www.facebook.com/sarahsneckofthewoods. Our Life. Lake Kissimmee State Park, Rolling Meadows Ranch and Allen David Broussard Catfish Creek Preserve State Park, Lake Wales, Florida. Where we work, live, play, cry and most of all Love each other.. Come and sit a spell. Danny and I share so much laughter and tears here, working and living here as we do. I needed a place to start downloading pictures I have taken over the years here. I need to write about them. I spend so much time wishing I was still living in Colorado that I forget what I have here. We really have a great life. I’m praying that once we finally get into the Cracker House things will get better-UPDATE- We are in the remodeled State Cracker House and it is better, although there are times I miss the RV. We lived it in for 5 years. It was home. It IS OURS…..I am also posting about Country Life in General and Florida in particular. Danny is a park ranger at Lake Kissimmee State Park. I volunteer there. I am a former teacher who misses being around kids.… I am mom who lost her only son, Bobby 9 years ago. I am a wife. I need to find me again. “Our Neck of the Woods” refers mostly to Rolling Meadows Ranch, were we live. It joins Lake Kissimmee State Park, on one side and Allen David Broussard’s Catfish Creek Preserve State Park on the other. We work mostly at LK and RM.
From Sarah Now. : Our Neck Of The Woods, Is all about  Our Life in the last 10 plus years. All about Our area and it’s history. About Life in Florida. It is about Danny and Sarah. Life at or around the park.

via Our Neck Of The Woods.

Rolling Meadows Ranch -Where we live, work, play, love
Rolling Meadows Ranch -Where we live, work, play, love
Deer by the French Doors.
Deer by the French Doors.
Just a small part off the back and side of the yard. and the Cracker House
Just a small part off the back and side of the yard. and the Cracker House
Danny Fixes One Of The Electric Gates
Danny Fixes One Of The Electric Gates
Me Working at Rolling Meadows Ranch
Me Working at Rolling Meadows Ranch
Danny and I were on the swamp buggy at Rolling Meadows. Oh the fun we would have.
Danny and I were on the swamp buggy at Rolling Meadows. Oh the fun we would have.

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Danny and I at Liar’s Lair Saloon : Park Of Camp River Resort and next to Rolling Meadows Ranch and Across From Lake Kissimmee State Park. . We were celebrating a house event. Or Park Event . Not sure.
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Re-posting From Christine Hammond :How to Grieve Well

Today would have been my mom’s 77TH birthday here on earth. It is her first Heavenly Birthday. Our family is still in that year of firsts.
Happy Birthday, Mom. We love you.

Christine Hammond, MS, LMHC

Not everyone grieves in the same way.  After all, there are different people with different physical appearances, perspectives, experiences, thoughts, emotions, backgrounds, and attitudes.  So why when it comes to grief do some believe that there is one correct way to handle the loss of a loved one?

There are in fact a number of constructive ways to manage the feelings of grief and some destructive ways.  Learning the difference between the two is far more important.

Denial.  It is not uncommon for someone to struggle with believing that a loved one has passed away or to pretend that the person has not really passed.  For a time being, the person may even imagine conversations with their loved one, knowing how they would most likely respond in a given situation.  This usually does not last too long after passing and is more of the emotions catching up to reality.  The…

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Re-posting : remembering an old friend by Miriam @Writing For Myself

Miriam’s post hit me hard. I think we have all had a situation like this. Grieving a lost friend whom we haven’t even thought of in years.

Writing for Myself

So out of the blue tonight I looked up an old friend on Facebook. I don’t know why. It’s not something I normally do. I’ve lost touch with nearly everyone from my childhood and young adult years, and I only have two Facebook friends that I knew when I was a kid. They both friended me, and I accepted. It’s fine, being updated on their lives, but I have no burning desire to track down everyone I’ve ever known and see what they’re like now. I barely have the energy for current relationships beyond my immediate family- why would I want to connect with people I haven’t seen in years and years?

But I guess I was just curious, even though I wouldn’t have sent a friend request I wanted to know that she was “out there”. And then I ended up finding out that she died of breast cancer…

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